Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Baby Fog {Day 6}

Wow.
This first week is hard.
Harder than I ever imagined. No one can prepare you for it though.
Tru is amazing, I find myself staring at him and when we're not nursing or cuddling I miss him being with me.
Lots and lots of tearful joy has been shed here at casa de Jech.

Nursing has been a lot harder than I expected. Luckily he's a very eager and patient nurser as my milk still hasn't fully come in.
*Something* tells me we're nearing the end of that road block. (please God, please)

We had our first outting yesterday- to the pediatrician and pharmacy!
My OB called in a script of reglan to help my milk come in, and Truman's first pediatrician visit went really well. He's down 3 oz since leaving the hospital and since my milk is/was still MIA we are to continue supplementing with formula as needed.

I was devastated the 1st night we got home and I nursed for 4 hours straight and could NOT satisfy him. He was crying, shaking, lip quivering--- you could have killed me dead, I felt like I was at the lowest of the low. I can't satisfy my baby, I'm not enough, I failed, my biology failed etc.
I thought maybe it was my latch so I had my friend Natalie come over and see if she could help as she's an experienced nurser.
There I sat in a robe so beyond swollen from fluids (a whole other issue) sobbing my eyes out (to put it mildly) Natalie and I tried repositioning, the pacey, pumping you name it.
James and I called the after hours clinic and that's when they suggested formula to satisfy him. So we did what's best for Tru and it helped him sleep and everything. :-/
I do firmly believe its hurting his tummy as he's got enough gas to fuel a rocket ship. Since Thursday we've practiced for hours and hours and his latch is great. My friend Jenny came over Saturday and reassured me it couldn't be any better than what he was doing.

Everyday is a little easier, we're figuring things out slowly but surely. He's the poster boy for "Titty Baby" and loves to cuddle!
We're so thankful for the family and friends who have helped us out. It really does take a village to raise a baby.

I'm also so thankful for my husband, he has been so fantastic these past few days. I have a deeper love and respect for him and I believe he feels the same way too.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

287 days later

We now know full well what a miracle is. So in love!
I'm doing this from my phone so bare with me.
Came in last night for a round of cytotec, slept a total of 1 hour.
At 5:00 AM started having strong contractions, got my epidural at 6:30 AM.
Our amazing dr came in at 8:00 and broke my water and I was dilated to a 4 and 75% effaced. Changed to internal monitors due to HB dropping.
Did a "whiff" of Pitocin from 9:00-10:00.
By 10:40 I was 10 CM & 100% 0 station.
Started pushing a little after 1:00 Pm & baby Tru was born 1:39 PM weighing 7lbs 11oz and 21" in length.
We both got to watch his birth (something we did NOT think we'd do) and James assisted in delivery & cut the cord.
I'm so proud of him!
So so perfect and we are blessed beyond words.

Me at 41 weeks


Transitional contractions before the epidural.

Tru in his first few minutes of life

My first picture with my son



Daddy love <3



Cousins!

Monday, July 23, 2012

The Last "Boring" Weekend... EVA!!!

Happy Monday!
I am NOT going to talk about the fact that I'm still veddyveddy pregnant.

I want to talk about these lovelies...
I Freaking LOVE True Blood!
James makes fun of me because I watch every episode 2-3 times the week that it comes on...
it's because it's so intesne you just can't simply catch it all the first time (he scoffs).
I Love IT I LOVE IT IIIIIIIIIIII LOVE IT!

And since I'm flashing my full fledge nerd card I just want you all to know I'm on team Northman! 

(Pics from 2012 Comic-Con /True Blood FB Page)

"Sookie" is PREGNANT!!! And not just pregnant, she's pregnant with twins!


"Eric and Bill"
"Jason and  Pam"




Also, 
 I made this Saturday night and my husband was super happy with me because it's hella tasty (and easy).
Winner, winner chicken dinner!



Thursday, July 19, 2012

You're past your due date!

What the whaaaa?!
At least we have a sense of humor about all of this.

I'm going to keep this short as I'm really pretty done talking about pregnancy (namely mine, let's talk about yours!).
Saw the doctor today, no progress.
I've tried induction techniques every day now so that tells us he's just not ready.
So!
He has 5-6 days to decide on his own then we'll be induced.
Here's the plan: I go back Tuesday if I've not "ripened" anymore I'll be admitted that night and work on dilating/effacing all night, my doc will break my water Wednesday AM and we'll get the show on the road then. If I've changed from now until Tuesday, but no baby we'll just come in Wednesday AM and go from there.
Maybe I'm looking at this the wrong way but I am so relieved! We have a plan! (super planner) he has more time to get here on his own but when it comes down to the wire the dr will make the call.
The doc said he's very good sized and I'm right on track at 40 weeks! He is crawling up my ribs now as I type (ow).

So I decided that I need a distraction, something for myself, something to keep me from going stir-crazy.
I started a book...
Not a parenting book
Not a pregnancy book
Not a labor/delivery book
I started the ever so addictive 50 shades of Gray. :)
Christian Gray sounds like a total hottie thus far. (5 chapters in)
Heck I see where people get the "50 shades of gray babies" thing from. We may very well get pregnant again before this pregnancy is done! Haha.
(side note- I had a client use that on me when I was a social worker) yes apparently everyone is allowed to try and procreate. :-/

One other little blurb on this pregnancy:
I think a lot of my/our/our babies hold up is a mental thing I have going on. I am full of anxiety. I'm worried, nervous, scared, ill prepared- you name it. There needs to be a book on mentally getting your shit together before going into labor/last few weeks of pregnancy. Having a sense that "no matter what this is coming to an end, and you'll be in good hands" today has greatly eased my anxiety. I feel safer, secure and more comfortable.
Maybe I can actually sleep tonight!

Monday, July 16, 2012

The prelude

... A plan to make a plan.
Even my body is a super planner.

I'm going to do my best to stop annoying my friends with newborns, and read for my answers.

According to this handy-dandy book I'm in the Prelude To Labor and according to my symptoms I've been there for nine days now.

- excitement & anxiety
- nesting instinct
- more episodes of BH's
- babies activity level may change
- increased pressure in pelvic floor
- increased dc

I'm also really starting to get a handle on what pre-labor BHs feel like. They did move from mildly noticeable to semi-uncomfortable, but the kicker I keep telling myself is real contractions get longer, stronger and closer together no matter what you do they don't stop. So when I have uncomfortable BHs I lay down and they subside. This is all very fascinating to me!

This weekend was pretty... well... boring. James and I jumped on the nesting bandwagon and cleaned out the garage, I aired up the bike tires, washed the bikes & lubed the chains. A futile effort as I don't get to ride. I cleaned the house, vacuumed, swept and mopped the floors. Did the dishes, clothes, towels, sheets and dog are all clean too. James did a ton too, he moved all of our scrap lumber from building the house out of the garage *hooray!!!* and mowed, weed-eated the yard. He's so handy!

Induction Tips
 Since I hit 39 weeks I've been trying different fun things to induce! As I've mentioned previously my fun greatly revolves around FOOD right now so I have tried red-curry Thursday, shrimp etoufee & hot sauce Friday, salsa verde  Saturday and spicy brats Sunday. All tasty, all useless to induce, IMO. I walked a mile Saturday and am doing my best to stay upright/standing and let gravity do some work.
We've tried some other fun ones too! 
Fun induction article on bellybelly



So to be honest, I have no idea what I'm feeling but I really and truly don't feel like real labor is close. During the day I'm very comfortable, and at night I can sleep like a rock. All I have is pressure on my hips and pelvis, lots and lots of attention getting but not awful BH's and his movements have really changed. It seems like he has longer periods of  being awake and sleeping.
I go back to the doctor Thursday for my 40 week apt and at that point we'll set an induction date.


Friday, July 13, 2012

Five Daze

Today is my momma's birthday! "She's 35" as I said all through elementary and middle school. (You're welcome mom ;) )
It doesn't look like Truman will make his appearance today, sigh. We're just not ready I suppose.
I went to the doctor yesterday and she said "not much has changed" I'm still at/around 2, 50% and -3. Which is disappointing considering I've had a pretty noticeable amount of pressure on my hips and hoo-ha. We talked about what real contractions feel like and after our compare and contrast discussion I'm pretty sure I've not had any true contractions. None of them have been painful and they don't feel like a charlie horse in my stomach. The (braxton hicks?) contractions I've been feeling are from ribs to hip but it feels like someone it just "pressing" like how you'd lean on a door frame. This is all uncharted territory for me, I'm still enjoying it and he is so worth the wait even if he comes a week or more late!

I've been thinking about what could be the hold up and this occurred to me today...


What's your sign!?

I think he's determining whether he'll be a Cancer or a Leo! 

Cancer
 June 21- July 22
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. 



Leo 
July 23- August 22
Leo is the lion, this well suited symbol represents Leo very well. They possess a kingdom which they protest and cherish. The are high esteemed, honorable and very devoted to themselves in particular! The kingdom could be anything from work to home to a partner, whatever it is, you rule it. Leo is always center stage and full of flair, they enjoy basking in the spotlight. A Leo always makes their presence known. Leo are full of energy that acts like a magnet for other people. Others are attracted to Leo's wit, charm, and what they have to say for they speak of things grand and very interesting. Leo will never settle for second best. They want only the best which can cause lavish excessive spending habits as they enjoy their life of luxury, which is all to easily justified by the grand and magnificent Leo! Public image is very important to Leo, with luxurious possessions and ways of life, this keeps the public image in high standing. They will do whatever it takes to protect their own reputation. Leos are very generous, kind and openhearted people. If a Leo is crossed, they will strike back with force but they are not one to hold a grudge, they easily forgive, forget and move on. Leos are always trying to make things right in the world, they have larger then life emotions and they need to feel like they have accomplished something at the end of the day. They react to situations with action instead of sitting back and thinking about it, they are not impulsive however because they look at the future and consider consequences of their actions.



I can't wait, I don't even care. Just come healthy little man.
Plus I know you're gonna be so cute cute cute cuuuuuuuute!!!!!!!
(Plus you've been kicking me for about 2 hours now... I don't know Morse code, sorry)



39 weeks

... and man I'm feeling and looking worse for the wear. 

Sunday, July 8, 2012

10 days until his due day!

Alright I'm going to admit I'm tired of the pregnancy talk. A little less talk and a lot more action, please little boy.
There's definitely been some changes this weekend it's a little too TMI for an open blog but let's just say... More *ouch* progress. I go back to the dr's office on Thursday. My moms bday is 7/13 (Friday) and I think it'd be SUPER sweet it he came then. I realize I don't get to pick, grrr.
Anyway here we go, the final count down! Ready to think about my boy and less about this delivery. Let's get on with it!

Friday, July 6, 2012

Etsy Finds & Homemade Goodness

I love etsy, and homemade items in general.
However, Ashley Love should have her hands slapped for showing such an impressionable person Etsy.com! Shame!

My Etsy Finds


Ring Sling:
As long as our little guy permits I'll be a sling wearing momma. I have a hot sling and a moby sling and I can't wait to use them all. I heard through an LLLI meeting ring slings are great too. Plus I love this color!

Handmade Giraffe: 
Yes, I've lost it, I've gone giraffe overboard! I just couldn't resist this adorable stuffed teether/plush giraffe! 


Photo-prop: 
This is the only little "hint" I'm going to show for Tru's newborn pics. I. Can't. Wait!

Minky Crib Sheet: 
Oh yeah, had to get him a minky giraffe crib sheet, I think this will be so nice during the colder months! 


Nursing bracelet:
Genius suggestion on Jenny and Mollies part (thank you) this little bracelet is going to be so handy! You can move it from arm to arm to remember which "side" to nurse on next and move the charm to document the last time you nursed!

Minky Car Straps:
I bought a carseat cover for the infant car seat we're borrowing in hopes to return it in the excellent condition it was loaned to us in. I decided he needed a little fluff addition. <3



Homemade Goodness From Friends & Family 

A few months ago I blogged on buying several yards of fabric, and couldn't wait until it was all done... Well, it's done!! The super talented and too sweet Anna Chappell made our little man new fitted sheets for my old bassinet (all of my cousins and brother used this bassinet too) as well as several other adorableness things with the scraps!
The bassinet, fabric finally updated after about 30 years... MUCH NEEDED!

Anna made taggies burp cloths, and bibs out of scraps. She also made him this receiving blanket out of this adorable puppy material I fell in love with at the fabric store! So soft!
Even MORE homemade goodness by family and friends!  
Lets face it, I know so many talented people! :) Which is a good thing because I lack talent bad. 
Stuffed Giraffe made by Jenny Samples mom, Paula Watkins. Giraffe blanket made by Jana Fancher. Camo crocheted blanket made by my Aunt Vicky and Patchwork quilt made by Jenny Oliver
LOVE IT ALL!!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

It's OK Thursdays


It's OK...

... To have heartburn as bad as a middle aged, overweight man.

... To confuse contractions with gas.

... To eat a Fiber One bar everyday and wonder each time. "WHY?!"

... To notice your mother, motherinlaw, sisterinlaw and yourself are LOSING it. :)
(if we're going down, at least we're going down together)

... That my new favorite thing is monistat anti chafing gel (try it, you'll love it)

... To dance like this when you're pregnant :)



... To go see Magic Mike tonight!

... To be waiting impatiently on a little boy in my tummy.



... To have your hospital bags packed waiting at the door!

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

And it goes on and on...

I can mark something else off of our Before Truman list!
James took me to dinner & a movie Friday night. Oh and I got to pick both, score! (I'm 5)
We ate Chinese, something Tman and I "require" on a weekly basis and went to see Rock of Ages, the Movie! I got to see the play last fall so I was stoked to see the movie and see how Hollywood portrayed the play.
I really liked the movie, and I REALLY liked the music. It was a tad bit long though IMO. I will also say that the star-studded cast helped the movie out greatly. Tom Cruise played Stacee Jaxx and James and I believe this was our favorite performance by Tom! He was so "not" Tom Cruise that it made it great. Alec Baldwin, Mary J Blige and Russell Brand did such wonderful jobs too!
I've heard "If my life was a musical I wish it was _______ ". Well, if my life was a musical Id want it to be Rock of Ages so I'd at least know the damn words to what we were always singing.


Magic Mike:

I have NOT seen Magic Mike, but I did see the preview for it and oh my good golly.
That movie is chalked full of eye candy but the one that took the cake to me was Matthew Mcconaughey. I know what I'll go see if I feel like I need some help inducing labor!!


I'm certain my preference for the MM stems from my long time love of Woody Harrelson. It all started with Cowboy Way. An all time favorite movie of my dad and I. We can pretty much watch this movie on mute and recite the whole show.

Alright that's enough eye candy for one day, a girl can only take so much.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Sometime This MONTH!

... Our dynamic duo will become a trifecta of crazy!

I didn't get do blog about the 20 days until his due day so I'll make up for it by saying "15 days until his due day!!!"
Holy Smokes!
HOLY SMOOOOOKESSS!!!!

So here's what's new...


The Last Lake Trip
James  and I went to the lake this weekend with some friends! We had a wonderful time and they caught lots of fish. I caught one! So yeah that was my first and last fish of the summer 2012 which is a pretty big bummer that I didn't get to go fish more but what can ya do? I've been so busy this summer and now my traveling days are toast for quite awhile. 
my catfish!
James' 15 lb carp

Buoyant
One of the funniest things I realized is how buoyant Truman and I are in this utero stage. I got in the water a lot this weekend to cool off and when I finally came back in I'd climb up the ladder and it was a shocking realization "this kid weighs a lot!" like my arms as they were pulling my body up were like: "Seriously? You're effing kidding me. Who do you think we are Arnold Schwarzenegger's arms!?"  
It was crazy/shocking/disheartening. Here's a major perk though! I hear having a newborn will give your arms wicked strength! Woot! 

 
 

 And the best news of all:
My friend had her baby and she is gorgggg!!!!!
 


Makenzie has quite a neat birth story on her new daughter Lynnlee (Gorgeous) Grace
Thursday she came in to see me before her weekly cervical check and said that she'd been mildly contracting all day. *progress!?* So she said "I'll text you and and let you know what they say".
So she texts at ~4:00 and says she was still dilated to a 2 and 70% effaced, no progress so apparently there was no reason to keep her. She went home Thursday night and started having regular contractions with increasing intensity so she went in at 1:30 AM Friday morning and stayed until 3:30 AM. Her contractions were strong, but not enough to dilate her past a 2 still... so they gave her the choice to go home or stay there and see what happens. They chose to go home and wait it all out.  
Disclaimer: Makenzie and I live in the country, she lives even more so in the country putting her home about 45-50 minutes from the hospital. 
So they went home thinking that baby girl would show up maybe Friday afternoon/Friday night. NOT the case! They got home a little after four AM, her water broke at home at ~6:00 AM and Lynnlee was here (luckily in the hospital) at 7:16 AM. No drugs, no nothing.
... Well she say's they gave her an ibuprofen...
WOOOOOOW!!!
 I was just blown away, I'm amazed by her strength and courageousness. I'm so proud of her. I got to see Miss Lynnlee Friday night and I cried like a little baby (I actually cried more than the little baby). She is perfect!


38 Weeks Dr Apt for TMan

Check went well, definitely retaining some fluid but not miserable. More effacing and dilation has occurred. And my next apt is in 10 days! Torture!!!



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