This first week is hard.
Harder than I ever imagined. No one can prepare you for it though.
Tru is amazing, I find myself staring at him and when we're not nursing or cuddling I miss him being with me.
Lots and lots of tearful joy has been shed here at casa de Jech.
Nursing has been a lot harder than I expected. Luckily he's a very eager and patient nurser as my milk still hasn't fully come in.
*Something* tells me we're nearing the end of that road block. (please God, please)
We had our first outting yesterday- to the pediatrician and pharmacy!
My OB called in a script of reglan to help my milk come in, and Truman's first pediatrician visit went really well. He's down 3 oz since leaving the hospital and since my milk is/was still MIA we are to continue supplementing with formula as needed.
I was devastated the 1st night we got home and I nursed for 4 hours straight and could NOT satisfy him. He was crying, shaking, lip quivering--- you could have killed me dead, I felt like I was at the lowest of the low. I can't satisfy my baby, I'm not enough, I failed, my biology failed etc.
I thought maybe it was my latch so I had my friend Natalie come over and see if she could help as she's an experienced nurser.
There I sat in a robe so beyond swollen from fluids (a whole other issue) sobbing my eyes out (to put it mildly) Natalie and I tried repositioning, the pacey, pumping you name it.
James and I called the after hours clinic and that's when they suggested formula to satisfy him. So we did what's best for Tru and it helped him sleep and everything. :-/
I do firmly believe its hurting his tummy as he's got enough gas to fuel a rocket ship. Since Thursday we've practiced for hours and hours and his latch is great. My friend Jenny came over Saturday and reassured me it couldn't be any better than what he was doing.
Everyday is a little easier, we're figuring things out slowly but surely. He's the poster boy for "Titty Baby" and loves to cuddle!
We're so thankful for the family and friends who have helped us out. It really does take a village to raise a baby.
I'm also so thankful for my husband, he has been so fantastic these past few days. I have a deeper love and respect for him and I believe he feels the same way too.