Today is awful in the world of Truman Paul.
Where do I even begin?
For by birthday I asked for Cheesecake.
Dip. Shit. Mistake.
So Wednesday night we had our cake and ate it too.... Thursday was full of belly hurting cries but I assumed the Prevacid for his GERD still hadn't kicked in. So Thursday night I had another piece of cheesecake.
FRIDAY- at least 5 inconsolable outbursts accompanied with -- arching back-- shrieks of pain -- hard as a rock belly -- refusal to eat -- wheezing breath -- coughing cries -- splotchy scalp -- crazy hands all over face.
One that lasted an hour plus. I kid you not.
That's when it hit me also in the middle of praying to God to PLEASE take this horrific pain away from him that it was that motherloving cheesecake.
So Saturday I was extremely mindful and avoided dairy all day.
My folks invited us over for dinner where mom made her enchilada's with cream of mushroom sauce.
I hesitated even eating them but what do you do? "these are nice and all, can I please have a PB&J?"
So I scraped off as much as I could and ate.
TODAY (aka Sunday, Funday)
Funday my ass.
He's either been asleep or crying since 8:30 it's 12:40 now...
We've tried everything!
Every angle you can imagine
And nursing at all of these angles too.
Rubbing tummy (which btw bad idea)
Laying on side
Laying on belly
We got about 3 minutes of smiles thanks to James "magic wedge" aka his legs propped up on the coffee table + shooshing +bicycle legs
Cows milk protein I HATES YOU!!
I kept thinking, "It's not cows milk allergy because he doesn't vomit nor does he have bloody stools" until I found this.
So I'm pretty pissed.
I'm pissed at me 1st off for not eliminating dairy right off the bat
(like I mentioned doing before he was born)
I'm pissed at me for not eliminating it as soon as he started having these GERD symptoms.
I'm pissed at how hard this is going to be.
I'm pissed at the dependency I have on dairy.
I can look at this as a win -MF'in- win
Win- surely to goodness cutting out dairy will mean a slightly less pudgy April.
Win- this will make our baby boy happy.
Win- this elimination has got to be a healthy change for me. Right?
Clearly you can tell I have wrote this post in the heat of the moment.
Going to lay down now!